Healing in Motion: 4 Months Into the Unknown
About four months ago, my body started speaking louder than usual. And I had no choice but to listen.
It began with pain—unexplained, persistent, and disruptive. Not just a sore muscle or a bad day, but something deeper. Something that didn’t match a simple diagnosis.
Pain that touched everything: my workouts, my digestion, my nervous system, my sleep, my ability to be present.
Pain that tried to convince me I was broken.But instead of giving in to fear, I made a decision: to show up for my healing anyway.
In the past four months, I’ve...
Shifted my entire way of eating—choosing foods that support my gut, reduce inflammation, and stabilize my hormones
Learned how to move my body with compassion, not control
Listened when I needed rest
Continued to train and move with intention, in ways that feel good to my body (this varies heavily depending on the day)
Leaned into community, education, and faith when everything felt unclear
I started pelvic floor physical therapy last week. It was the first time in a long time I felt seen. I’ll be going back again this week.
And in August, I have an appointment with a specialist I’ve waited months to see—someone I hope can help me understand the full picture.
This process has tested me.
There have been moments I’ve felt helpless. Moments when my symptoms were invisible to everyone but me. Moments when I’ve questioned everything.
But even in all of that, I’ve also witnessed my own radical transformation.
It would’ve been easy to slip back into old coping mechanisms or patterns that numbed my pain. But I didn’t.
Instead, I chose:
Food as medicine
Movement as a gift
Recovery as strength
Faith and hope as my compass
I still don’t have all the answers. But I’m moving anyway.
This is what healing looks like right now—not from a place of certainty, but from a place of deep trust.
So if you’re going through something you can’t yet name—
If your body is louder than the imaging and labs that come back “normal,” “healthy,” “unremarkable”…
If your symptoms are dismissed or misunderstood—
You are not alone.
And you don’t have to wait for clarity to start showing up for your own healing.
I’m in it with you. And I believe we’re going to find our way through.
— M
